Do you know what I wonder?
How many people, at this moment, are lying awake and crying?
I know there must be mire then just me, right? It's funny, you know. Not too many years ago, I honestly thought the best thing I could do was just give up. I was so depressed. I saw no point in anything anymore. Then, my life seemed to change. The scales seemed to at least be balancing out. I was, dare I say, happy.
Now, here I am, once again lying in the dark and crying. The nights are the worst. The house is so silent right now. All my animals are sound asleep (on the bed with me I might add). The only things I hear are the ticking of the clock and my husband snoring. It must be so wonderful to be able to just fall asleep. No thoughts slamming around your head like trapped ping pong balls. I wouldn't know. I have so much going on lately that it's a wonder I can function. Do you ever just feel so alone?
I do.
I feel as if everyone has just slowly changed their lives. Some better. Some worse. All without me. Even my husband has started pushing me away. My best friend as well. The two most important people in my life... Just seemed to stop caring. If no one cares what I do, why should I?
Why should I care about anything?

I did it!!!!!!

I DID IT!
Sorry, let me back it up and start from the beginning...

I have been doing a family Zumbatomic class every Thursday with my friend's daughters. Essentially, it's a watered down version of its adult counterpart; Zumba. I have been wanting to attend an adult Zumba class for awhile now. The problem is that I have always been too scared. Terrified that I'd make a fool of myself. Or that I wouldn't make it through the whole class. Well, my friend, Alisah, is a Zumba instructor. She told me about a "Dance To A Healthy Heart" event. It was free, for a good cause and 2 hours. I searched around for someone to go with. (Because there was no way you would catch me going alone.) Finally, my friend, Sonia said she was interested. Before we went in, we agreed that we could never make it through two hours. When we got too tired, we would just leave. Before I knew it though, we had made it to the third (out of four) instructors! We realized that we were going to make it and, as a reward, we bought ourselves hip scarves and wore them through the rest of the dances.

It was such a good time and I was amazed at how at ease I was after I got into it. I am completely hooked and fully intend to enroll in Alisah's class as soon as the nicer weather hits. Most importantly though, I am really proud of myself. I went into a situation saying,"I can't do this." When I left, I was incredulously saying, "I DID it. I can't believe it!"

The confidence boost that came with doing thisis absolutely amazing. So, my advice..
Step out of that comfort zone. Do something that you never thought you could. You may be surprised at what you CAN do!

WTB shirt

So, I designed a Who's The Boss t-shirt for my little sister and we thought it came out pretty neat. Here are the pictures...

<---------------Back of the shirt.

                                               Front of shirt

                                              Closeup of back

I order these shirts through my Cafepress account. They run me about $30.00 plus $5.00 s/h. If anyone is interested, let me know and I can put an order in. :)

Happy Birthday Judith Light!

Today is a cold and wintery Wednesday. Much more importantly though, it is also Judith Light's birthday.
I have been watching Judith for as long as I can remember. It started out with only knowing her as Angela Bower on "Who's The Boss". I was just a kid but I adored that character. As I got older, I began watching her other movies. I slowly began to realize that there was so much more to Judith then her WTB role. She was, and still is, beyond versatile. Her acting is not just surface deep. She truly becomes her characters. Right down to the tiniest details. It amazes me that she is not an A-list celebrity. For all her talent, she is sorely underappreciated.
Now, let's be honest. There are a decent amount of gifted actors. So, why Judith? What makes her special? Why do I admire her so much? Simply put, she is no one but herself. In all accounts, what you see is what you get. Judith doesn't portray herself as kind, considerate and loving... That's her natural personality. She truly appreciates her fans and takes time to meet them. Not to mention, Judith believes that celebrity is great but if she doesn't use it to help others, why have it.
So she does. She is extremely vocal in the fight against AIDS and an active supporter of the GLBT community. She was one of the first celebrities to really put herself out there and I admire her for the strength it takes to stand up and fight. Especially fir something so many people oppose.
So, Judith, today is your day. May it be filled with happiness, laughter and love. You deserve it!
Happy Birthday!

Keeping my resolutions

Did you make any new years resolutions this year? I did. Ten of them in fact. Some were little things such as finishing a project. Others were a lot more personal. Then there were a few that have somehow managed to overlap into each other. I promised myself that I was going to lose the extra weight that has crept up on me. Another was to step outside of my comfort zone. Last, but not least, was to conquer some of my bucket list.
How do these three connect? Well, thanks to my determination that I WILL lose that fat and my new, intense love for Zumba, I have essentially linked all three! Joining a zumba class will cross of a bucket list item (join a dance class), get me waaayy out of my comfort zone, and (hopefully) fit back into my favorite skirt.
I am practicing dances like crazy in hopes that I will be able to attend an upcoming two hour zumba for your heart event.
I will keep you posted on my progress and if I make it through the two hours lol...